untitled, brooklyn 2014
untitled, brooklyn 2014
— Robert Frank
self-portrait, paris 2014
This was a photo trip but it’s so much more than photos. I mean yes, this whole opportunity came about because of photography. Something that I was introduced to back in college. To be honest I don’t know why I even signed up for the class. Maybe I was interested in photography but just didn’t realize it yet. But in all actually I probably thought it was an easy credit to pass the time because all I really cared about was playing basketball. Little did I know, that class would be far from easy.
Now photography is an obsession of mine. It’s part of who I am and I can’t remember the last time I left my house without my camera. I can’t even remember the last time I left my camera in my camera bag. Seriously. Even on the way to the London Heathrow Airport I again realized it was stupid to not have my camera ready, even if I am carrying luggage. I hardly made it through two tube stops before life was saying shoot, shoot, shoot!
I never know when life is going to pull me in such a way. I think that is the best part about it all. I went from thinking that photography has to be pre meditated to it being completely instinctual. I had not idea that was even possible. I have no idea that even lived inside of me. But it does, and oh is that feeling so alive. It’s the greatest feeling that I get over and over again. That feeling not only leads me photographically but it leads my life. That’s because now I realize everything I do is in sync and on one accord. All of this work that I’m doing is greater than me and part of my life’s purpose.
For me, photography is a buildup of everything I am. It’s a buildup of my past experiences, relationships, friendships, visions, and how I understand and interact with the would around me. This is why I say this was a photo trip but so much more than photos.
I’m not a photo, you’re not a photo…but instead we are all life. That understanding is the greatest of all. With that thinking I know that life is always new, and that makes the photographic exploration endless and limitless.
Instead of saying this is what a photo is, this is what a photo looks like… I’m looking out to the world and living to figure out what a photo can be. I’m interested in learning and knowing new life, and new life exist only in the unknown. I had to let go of everything that I thought I knew in order to know this life. I had to let go in order to believe this way of living.
This was a photo trip but so much more than photos.
This is another chapter in the books. Another month that I lived life fearlessly, another challenge that I overcame, another story that I’m able to share with you.