"The primary problem is to learn to be your own toughest critic. You have to pay attention to intelligent work, and to work at the same time. You see. I mean, you’ve got to bounce off better work. It’s matter of working."
365 and beyond
what a journey.. i don’t even really know where to begin. when i first began to take self-portraits i just thought it would be something fun and challenging to do, i didn’t really think much about it. early in the process it began to take on a life of it’s own. i didn’t want to create the same image everyday so I began to look at my days with a whole new light, which ultimately helped me look at myself in ways that I never had before. the project manifested to being a study of myself and a search to finding out what it means to be me and what it’s like to live here. it taught me to have a camera on me at all times, which helped me with my street photography. it challenged me to be vulnerable and to take risk, and that’s how i began to use all analog cameras and process my own b/w film. along with that came writing everyday, because i would have to note where and when the images were taken and the setting used to make the image.
i didn’t make it through the entire 365 days but i’m so proud of the body of work that i did make. more importantly i’m happy with what i learned and what i’ll take away from it. i can honestly say i’ve grown so much from it and i’m excited about photography/life more than ever. photographing myself naked helped me evolve like none other. it helped me break out and accept myself for who i am, physically, mentally, and creatively. it feels good to not look for acceptance from the outside world, but to create out of the framework of who i am, straight from the core. once i got to that point, nothing really mattered and it transcended tremendously throughout my 365 and beyond.
for me, photography is about an experience and a process. in particular i’m interested in the transformation of form and light and the problem that it creates to evoke a feeling. photography has simply freed me, and it’s the best feeling ever.
Winogrand spoke often of freedom…
which he considered an absolute value. one had first to have the liberty to be what one was, unenslaved by what one was expected to be, or taught one was expected to be. “it’s all a matter of how much freedom you can stand,” implying that freedom was not only the greatest of gifts but one that had a hight cost. It could not just be enjoyed, but one had to be borne, and you might bear it only if you saw that really, you had little power at all. “you have to realize that you are nothing before you can be free.” you have to first accept how small you were, to let chaos carry you off and make you its own, and only if you did that might there possibly occur an unexpected inversion, whereby you strangely found yourself growing large.
"winogrand sought not to control but to submit to photography and the world as far as he could, and not to get novel pictures but to get closer to raw, unknowable life."
john szarkowski on garry winogrand
Andre Wagner - Route 26
*while updating my site, I decided to use it as a time to revisit some of my old work. Here’s one of my photo stories that I shot in Storm Lake, Iowa, where I went to college at.
Rog Walker / Richard Averdon Inspired // Portrait
untitled, rog walker / creatives in my space
*creatives in my space is the name of a new portrait series i’ll be shooting over an expanded period of time. i’m excited about the studio and expanding into a new aspect of my work. of course one of my favorite photographers and brother in crime had to be the first in the space. let the fun begin!
Limited Edition Print Contest
If I were alive on August 25th in 1952, I’m sure I would have been running to the newsstand, ready to purchase a copy of LIFE Magazine featuring Gordon Parks. Gordon Parks has not only inspired me but has changed my perspective on life in and outside of photography. He knew the importance of growing as an individual was in direct proportion to finding the guiding light of art and love.
Parks knew all to well the reality of not being exposed to the culture of arts, and struggled during his early years to feed his hunger for photography. And because of this, I’ve decided for the first time to give away a couple limited edition film prints from my Emerging Man personal project. Though Gordon Parks titled his piece #EmergingMan, I believe this story applies to both men and women—anyone willing to appreciate the beautiful struggle.
There will only be two limited edition prints available (one person from the US and one person from overseas), in order to enter the contest you will have to email me your photo by Friday, Aug 17th at 12:00 PM EST. In the email you should include your own picture depicting what you translate #EmergingMan to mean. I will choose the winners and post the winning photos on my blog.
Friday the 17th will be the release of my project, Emerging Man
Your email format should be as follows…
Subject: Emerging Man Photo Contest / Your Name / Your Location